We went to the trailer today for some rest and relaxation, I was not there long before I wandered off to explore down a gravel road. My eye caught a look at a patch of land that was dry, cracked and barren except for a few weeds. as my eye caught it my heart began to ache as it resonated with the clear image.
This healing journey that I have been engaged in over the last two years has been brutally dry and seeming barren at times. That was one of the reasons I chose to step away and take a vacation, and one of the reasons I chose St. Catharines. I have family here ad I knew a visit with them would be fun, relaxing and nourishing.
As I examined the ground and my own inner being and allowed myself to observe I was struck by the fact that part of nourishing myself is to allow the tears to fall and soften the hardened and dry places of my soul. I do not always do that well sadness and grief are difficult emotions for me to feel and observe, I am learning to but I have a long way to go.
I thought by going away and having a break from my therapy routine I would feel a sense of calm and relief, silly me, the emotions come with me, but the break from therapy is good. It is good to have time to process and observe the changes that have transformed my life over the last three years.
To look at the ground it was hard, cracked and dry but there was still greenery growing, sprouting. It just needed some nourishment in the form of rain. My soul is the same way right now. It is dry and parched with some cracks and wounds but there is growth.
Interesting thought just hit me, what if the cracks are not really caused by the dryness? What if they are actually caused by the growth?
Let’s look at that tomorrow after I have had some nourishing rest.
Dream Chaser 